It's 3:00 am and I just woke from a dream. In my dream, I was looking at old advertisements and thinking that something I wanted couldn't possibly exist in my current time and place. After digging a bit further, I found out it actually did. Somehow this dream led me to answer a question that has plagued me all of my life: Does fate decide us or do we decide fate?
I've always read signs. Like breadcrumbs, I follow them to a destination and am amazed at how perfectly the path has been laid. Yet, I can't help but notice after all of these years, that the signs seem to be leading me back to where I began. The further I go, the more I realize that what I really need to find are the things I've left behind. I become confused. Am I heading forward or backward? Is my internal compass broken?
When one becomes a student of energy, he/she inevitably ends up learning about manifesting. It is the practice of putting energy into a desired result and waiting for it to come to fruition. The process is just as much about intention or belief as it is about action. We instinctively act on what we believe to be true and in so doing, we bring about the desired result. What has always confused me about manifesting is that I don't understand the difference between knowing something ahead of time (intuiting) and bringing it about with intention (manifesting.) It is like the old chicken and egg question that boggles my mind.
The more connected to the Divine I become, the more I realize there are no answers, only questions. The realm of Spirit is never black or white. It is gray. That is why religious stories pose questions and are told in parables. That is why we can't paint a clear picture of God in our mind. God cannot be defined. God is mystery. If we want to be connected to God, we must learn to dwell in uncertainty.
As for fate and the breadcrumb trail, my middle of the night “ah-ha" moment has led me to a new understanding. I believe we are active participants in deciding our fate which is predetermined at birth. It makes no sense, therefore, it must be true. If we are aware enough to recognize the signs that point us in the right direction, we realize they are simply the things that make our souls happy. The more we know ourselves, the more likely it is that fate will ultimately join our end to our beginning. Likewise, the more in tune we are with our own energy, the more likely it is that the world around us will seem to effortlessly manifest our bliss.